Learning what, when, how to quit.
I am still seeing my ex-boyfriend due to real estate deals.
He depends on me somehow. I call clients, sellers, the bank and others.
I know that being with him does not bring out the best in me.
I always pray to God to surround me with people who have good hearts, nice intention, loving, caring, and understanding attitude.
Being with my ex-boyfriend no longer make me feel loved, taken cared of and most especially understood.
I want to leave him but his father asked me not to. He said that if I want and believe that I deserve a better person, then why do I have to leave his son now? Now, that he is changing his bad behavior.
I said yes but after a week or two of being away from my ex-boyfriend, the problem again immersed. He can’t understand me, and worse, I feel not respected.
I, then, started to detach myself from him. Unless it was about a real estate deal, I did not talk to him.
He felt it.
I asked God’d permission to leave him. I am now ready to heal my broken and angry heart, and my hurt mind. Lord, let me go to another country if that’s your will.
I know that it is very difficult to leave him because I already thought that he was the best one for me. I never imagined being with someone else. Like getting married and growing old with. Until I saw his flaws. I covered them for a while. But I think and I believe that it is through God’s guidance that his bad side was revealed in my eyes and open heart.
Is it God’s decision for me to stay and be with him?
Lord, I accept whatever is your decision. Please let it be clear to me, in a dream or through a movie, or something better. Please Lord, please.
Lord, I know that pruning is painful. But I am ready. I submit to your pruning. In Jesus’ name. Amen.
